Mental Health. Something people struggle to talk about. I had a rough few days.
Here is an article that describes how I felt.
The thing is, I have been here so many times now, that dealing with that feeling has just become part of my life.
People think I am a quitter. Am I though? I think I get down on myself more than others. When I get down, I just want to run away from everything. Now that I am a little older though, I pick up an article like that. I reevaluate my decisions. Find the problems. Find the positives. Try and talk through it with the people that matter. Carry on with new knowledge. Most people don’t see that struggle though. It all happens inside. I do it to myself. Get your book out to the world. Build your online community. Try to submit for awards. Vet contractors. Attract an agent. Write another book. At the same time, I am supposed to be generating income and paying the bills. It can be overwhelming and the people around me don’t fully understand the creative struggle I go through. I am not an expert on marketing in any way but here I sit, trying to market. Every day is a struggle to try to get exposure but I am learning. Each mistake is an opportunity. Maybe I am marketing wrong? Maybe my depression and anxiety are because I have the wrong perspective…
Sometimes you need to fall to get back up. Feeling like this is okay. It refocuses me. I shouldn’t worry too much about how many reviews I have or how many copies I am selling. Those things will be byproducts of publishing more work. The real goal is to do it again, better. To keep improving. To keep suprising people. To keep having fun.
There are still a few weeks left on my 90-day campaign to help promote mental health with the CMHA. We all go through little battles like I just did. Many do it in silence but there are tools to help you get through it just like that article above. Remember to always talk it out. There is always someone to listen. If you don’t have someone you know. Talk to a stranger:
Canada: 1-833-456-4566
USA: 1-800-273-8255
https://ca.gofundme.com/f/Someones-Story-Help-BA-Bellec-Support-a-Cause
B.A. Bellec 
Kudos on sharing this openly, I understand what you are going through but only you know what its like living it. Keep on writing, keep on living. Life finds a way for more happenings eventually.
“I shouldn’t worry too much about how many reviews I have or how many copies I am selling. Those things will be byproducts of publishing more work. The real goal is to do it again, better. To keep improving. To keep suprising people. To keep having fun.”
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